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"Gay Christian" or "A Christian Struggling with Being Gay"?

Please, don't misunderstand me. I am merely making a statement about "Gay Christians", not confessing my beliefs. I do not believe that homosexuality is of God and I'm not anywhere close to changing my views. I cannot call myself a "gay christian". I am a person that is a christian who struggles with being gay. This is my own view and I am in no way trying to minimize anyone else's opinion. Being gay is a personal and deeply rooted part of a person, especially if you have always felt same sex attractions since birth. Being judged for being gay is an attack on the whole person, because being gay is a part of who you are. You've always been gay since you can remember or maybe you've just discovered you are gay. It's still a part of you. I've felt this way since the beginning too.

I am a person who loves Jesus Christ with all my heart who is struggling with being gay. I haven't found a way to come to terms with it. That's just how I feel. You can hate me for it, but that's who I am, and I don't expect everyone to agree with me. I was in a gay relationship for nine years and I've been dealing with being HIV+ since 1994. Currently, I'm in a gay relationship and I've been very open and honest with my partner about my spiritual struggles. He has been very supportive of me and he encourages me to find peace of mind.

Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender or straight. God loves us all. We are all people dealing with our own lives. I will be standing before God alone when I give an account for my life to Him, so I need to find peace with God without being a judge to anyone else. I need to point the finger at myself and search my own heart. Judging another person doesn't make me more righteous than anyone. It just make me more of a hypocrite and a coward because I'm afraid to look at the person in the mirror. I want others to see that there are "Followers of Jesus" out there who do not have the same view, but still love them unconditionally. I am sure we will be very suprised who we see being sent to heaven and to hell.

As always, I love you guys and spread love.

Peace!

Updated Monday, August 3, 2009:

Check this site out, "The Gay Christian Network".

Gay Christians?

I feel so layed back today, even though it's Monday. I'm listening to Big Band music. I love it. I'm not that old, so I can only imagine what it was like back then. The music is so relaxing. Reminds me of the rainy days, you just want to wrap up in your blankets in bed and watch classic b&w love stories on the boob tube.

What a nice day! It's warm with a cool breeze. Do you ever feel peaceful but stressed at the same time? I think it's the caffiene I had this morning. Gotta get off the caffiene.

Don't have much to say right now, only that I'm in a place in my life when I'm doing some spiritual searching as well as determining who I am sexually. Gay, Straight, Bisexual, non-sexual? Oh brother! And how does this all fit into my relationship with Jesus Christ? I'm in a gay relationship right now and my partner believes he was born gay, but I'm still not sure. I'm searching and open to input, opinions, views, and testimonies of others, if you'd like to comment.

Updated Monday, August 3, 2009:

Check this site out, "The Gay Christian Network".